well after the evens that happened today a tiny shine of light glittering at the end of the tunnel has finally started to creep towards me, the pain of which i have been feeling over the cause of the previous weeks may finally of been lifting, but this again could be shattered into a million piece's as it did once before and for the same reason that i am now feeling the feeling now "love" or even lust, these two words are extremely powerful and quite misunderstood in fact even, i cannot finally understand or yet even experienced true love at my age it is simply impossible, until then we have to go through the trial and error before we can even begin to understand love, for the time that we have to spend in the process of understanding is not the most pleasant most of us have to go through a lot of pain and heart ache ( no pun intended) but for the lucky few they seem to know all the ropes and we don't get a look in, this can be a major blow to the rest of us that are still learning and are ill experienced in the thing that we call live, maybe we shall know know what the mean of true love is.
next part to follow tomorrow!

gav