The original of this text was wrote some years ago in spanish, and then, after a review and some checking, I wrote it in english in my journal some months ago. And now, seeing lots of deviants suffering of depression and having those ideas, I think okay to publish this again as a news article.

I hope this text could help someone. If only 1 person say to me (or just let me know) that this text helped him/her or someone near him/her, I'll feel that my work was good.

Please, give a careful read. And yes, you have my blessing to redistribute this text to anyone that it needs. The only thing I want is... being credited. Because that, this text has an Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 License. If you want to suggest corrections, please tell me!

Have in mind 1 very important thing: I wrote this text because I've tried to commit suicide before. So, I know about what I'm writing, and about what is felt when you think on suicide.

What's suicide?

Suicide is when you decide to finish your life. This decision normally is taken after lots of problems -maybe temporary or definitive- but in the most cases, is taken during a depression.
Problems may vary. By example, a problem could be the death of someone that you love with all your soul, the school bullying, or the fact of being someone that you hate having success in your life, while you're just giving nothing to the world.

Some problems are really big problems, other are just big problems. The really big problems are the most hardest to pass, and with some of them, suicide maybe it's a good idea. Example: When Hitler saw that he lost the war, he commit suicide. He had a really big problem: Ally team defeated Germany, a whole country with thousands of people, the people hated him, he was going to be judged by the Americans and the jews he hated. What about pride? Death after an humiliation?

Well, we can't assure he thought that, but probably isn't very far of the reality.

In the other hand, we have the Big problems. No, aren't Really big problems. Just big problems. An example is when you failed your classes on the university. How many students are so afraid of their parents that want (and try) to commit suicide?

Another example: When a girl is pregnant. If the girl is just a 15th year teenager, obviously she isn't in conditions of take care of her baby. Solutions? Telling to her parents may conclude in a girl expulsated from her house with a parent that hate her. Another solution is an abortion. But after that, what she'll feel? She will feel good? Or she will feel like a murder?

Here we aren't to discuss or speak about the morality of abortion; that discussion could take years without having an unification of viewpoints. But as example it's good for now.

In the day of today, we're living something very strange. More kids are having suicidal tendences. With suicidal tendences I speak of anything suicide-related, from just a thought to the act on itself. Why it's that?

Parents aren't giving the attention to the fact. And if they are doing, they aren't pointing it to the correct side. I'll put an example. A (sadly) real case.
The kid go to the school. He suffers of bullying. The abusive classmates don't stop, and they don't get tired of annoying the poor kid. He suffers. Afternoon after afternoon; night after night; day after day. When the kid come to the home, his parents are there, with a huge smile. There are two options:
- Telling to the parents what's happening-
- Act like nothing happened.

Telling to the parents what happened is bad (from the child viewpoint). Why? Because parents are happy with him. If he tells to them what's happening, then, his parents will stop of being happy. I don't think this is what the kid want. And could turn worse: Most parents go to the house of the bull kid to speaking with the bull kid parents. Parents understand very well, but when the bull kid is punished, at the next day, the bull kid takes revenge against the kid of our example. And with the revenge, the situation is worse. So, the kid looks at the other option: Act like nothing happened.

From those 2 options, with what the kid wins?
Answer: With none of them.

When a kid suffer day after day (and start to think that he deserves what he's living), that, added to the words of the bull kids "You are nothing" and so, what do you think will start to be generated on his mind? Yeah, you're right. We have all the ingredients for baing the suicidal tendence. Eat it with honey and coca-cola.

The worst thing is... that a suicidal tendence is something bad. The kid, trying always to be good, don't speak about this suicidal tendence or what he's feeling because this will mean that he was thinking something bad, that deserve a kind of punishment (physical or psychological- Psychological punishment is the most common today).

And if the kid speaks about it, normally is when the kid is acting bad or something, and his parent is trying to correct him, then, the kid just get out the words, and the parents, concentrated in keep the kid quiet, just ignore it thinking it's just a couple of words destinated to hurt. Yes. Are words destinated to hurt. But showing this idea is a clear signal that the kid has thought in the possibility in any moment, so, beware.

There are 3 myths about suicide.

1. Kids that commit suicide do it because parents never loved it.
2. When someone says "I'll gonna commit suicide!" normally is just for calling attention, nothing more.
3. When someone think on suicide, is because he/she is stupid.

I'll go in reverse order.

When someone think on suicide, isn't because he/she is stupid. Even more: It can be just the contrary!
More knowledge it's equal to less happiness. Has you heard the phrase "Ignorance gives happiness"? Yes, it's true. When you start to know more and more about how it's going the world, how it's being polluted, destroyed, the kills, the deaths, the wars... Do you want to live in a world like that? More knowledge means less possibility of happiness

When someone says "I'm gonna suicide" it's only for calling attention, nothing more. It's sad how many times I've heard this.

When someone think in commit suicide, it's really desperated for some situation. If someone says that will commit suicide, he's in reality shouting for help, and only the ones with the open ears will be able to listen him and help him. Yes, it's for calling attention, but that doesn't means that he will don't commit it.

Always stay tuned to the warnings. Lots of times, they are real problems, and it would end in a hard way with a tragedy.

Another myth is the one that says that a kid that commit suicide normally do it because his parents don't love him. That's not true. I'll say: Why kids that suffered raping, abuse, violence for years and years, hasn't commited suicide? And why kids that never suffered in the life feel their existance empty, so empty as for commit it?

Normally isn't the fact that parents don't love. Normally is the fact that parents don't know how to see the signals on the kids, or if they see, they don't know how to react. Sometimes, just a hug and listening to the kid it's enough. That's the reason why the kid tend to look in friends more than in parents. That, added to what I've said about "suicidal thoughts are bad", make you think why really they don't trust in parents. But... who more than parents could give love and a hug when it's needed? In the most cases, the kid see in their friends a way to escape, but often his situation overwhelmes him, and he don't resist. That's the reason of a young woman that commit suicide on Iquique (Chile)- Because she was overwhelmed by her classmates that hated her and bullied her and bullied her and bullied her....... without the help of the school, and with parents that even if they tried, weren't able to act.

What parents could do? I'll don't say "trust in your sons" or "give love to your sons". Those phrases were so expoted that now don't have meaning. I'll say what I think.

Lots of times, parents are strict. Anything bad must to be ripped of or punished. That form in the kid the idea of "If I do something bad, I'm a bad kid". And kids that really want to be bad persons, don't exist. The kid just shut his mouth because saying would be accept that he is a bad kid, and (in the mind of the kid), lose the love of his parents.

I'd suggest being less strict in teaching, but that would make the contrary effect. So, this is a topic that should be studied by experts.

The thing we could teach our kids is... Nobody is able to say that you are nothing. If he say, if they say, it has no relevance. Living for the cheer of the world is the reason why lots of people don't live happy these days.

If you are reading this text, and you are thinking in commit suicide, I just wanna say that I'll agree with your idea. I'll say to you "go!". But first, please answer (and/or do) all the 10 specified things I'll say. And after answering all of them, please, read them again once. Then, you'll say to me if you really wanna commit suicide.

1. Why do you wanna die? (Please, explain it in large. Don't give to me a reply of less than 10 lines).
2. How many people love to you? (Please try to name all. Familiars? Friends? People on the internet? Name all of them that you can remember. Yes, "mamma" and "pappa" are different persons).
3. Why do you could give them the big sorrow of losing you? Remember that you'll be taking away yourself forever; they will not be able to speak with you, to have fun with you, to laugh with you or even of comment something with you. You'll be gone forever. Why they should be punished with that?
4. OK, you'll go. Make a list with ALL the things you must to do before dying. And don't commit anything untill all the elements on the list are complete.
5. Say goodbye. To your internet friends is very easy; post into your blog, DeviantArt journal, Fotolog, Myspace, etc. that you'll commit suicide, and a goodbye for everyone. Isn't so hard. To your real friends, just an indirect note would be enough.
6. Try to enjoy for the last time all the things you normally do. Don't come and commit suicide in any moment; something so important must to be planned. Give to you about 1 week for preparing all. And during that week try to enjoy, really enjoy, the simple things of life, that are what put flavor on it. Try to enjoy the sight of the water boiling before you make coffee. Try to enjoy the dust flying particles at the sunlight in the morning. Try to enjoy the sound of birds outside. People is a mess, but there are better things that people.
7. Pawing isn't necessary, but I recommend you do it at least once in your life. (Please, take the double sense of the word).
8. Express your weirdness. No, I know that you aren't just a normal person. Everyone is weird in certain way. Some people is more weird than other, but in the end, everyone is. So, express your weirdness, tell a secret about you.
9. Write a diary. In that diary write everything you remember, and try to express everything you want the people know after your death. Remember: Those diaries are super valuable when the author is gone! Police and family look for them and keep them like a huge treasure.
10. If you'll commit suicide, be sure of doing everything of the above mentioned things. Read them again, and read the replies. It's all in order? Did you do everything? Your family and friends deserve the punishment of losing you? It's all ready?

After doing all that, I can say "ok, go and commit suicide". But not before.
And remember only 1 thing. People may be a mess. We may want to see all the humanity dead. Literally. But people isn't all in the life. Whe life is a lot of things. From the little ones that I wanted you to enjoy, to the big ones, like the success on it. We wanna make a better humanity; we don't want the good people go out of it. It's like a fruit tree. When a tree has good and bad fruits, normally the tree is a good tree. But if good fruits drop of the tree and the only fruits on the tree are the bad fruits, then, the tree is bad. What are you contributing to?